Well... once again the world crashes down around me. I am stuck in a situation where my friends are few, my chances of getting a job are even less, and the future has no direction. Strange how that works isn't it? Regardless, I will be okay... I usually am. It just gets me to thinking though; why is it that when the best stories are over, that you are left with nothing but emptiness? It is a strange feeling... being empty after experiencing a great moment. Is it out of regret, or simply knowing that I am incapable of creating such a work? I may never know.

Anyways... Let's get the bad news over with first shall we? That way the good news brings you out of the slump of the bad news! ...Or something like that.

Bad News:

1: My computer is made of fail-cake, with fail-filling, with a slightly tangy fail-frosting on top. It recently contracted a Cyber-STD from that cheap HP down the street. (Meaning it had a virus and prolly still does.) So, now I have to access the internet (Among other things) through a backdoor, that I have to find. Good times.

2: It is difficult to find a job around here. It is even more difficult to find a job around here when you live in a town that's 60 miles away from the town you are trying to get a job in, and it's sort of difficult to survive off of $100 a month... or less.

3: I haven't lost a single pound since I've moved here, and lack the will to actually get out and get working on that at the moment.

4: The guy I like lives about 2500 miles away. Nuff said.

5: None of my creative abilities are proving to be of any avail. I lack the emotion to sing, the patience to draw, the will to take pictures, and have writer's block. So... Sorry if you were expecting art out of me anytime soon.

Good News:

1: Despite my computer's attempts to kill itself... It somehow works. If I were you, I'd refrain from downloading anything from me... or anything my name is attached to though.

2: My aunt has given me a leg-up into a possible job, but I am not holding my breath. If it doesnt work out.... I will join the Navy... even against my better judgment

3: Even though I have not lost any weight... I haven't really gained any either, so I suppose that is a positive note as well.

4: Distance aside... there is a really awesome guy I like, and he seems to like me back. I'd say this was a major plus. Again... I'm not holding my breath though.

5: I'm still alive. Yes, despite the intolerance of an agonizingly boring existence in beautiful Lone Pine, California... My life persists. It's mostly thanks to the Monday's and Tuesday's that I am able to spend with my friends in Bishop, and the long talks I have with this guy I really like. My sanity is on the edge of a knife, so... if I snap at you... I apologize in advance.


Stunningly boring existence aside... My mental health pretty much depends on the Dungeons and dragons games that I attend every Monday. Thank you Catt and Grim for that, you are generous hosts as always. Luckily My future is starting to take shape... I have a few options lined up before me. 3 of which depend on me getting a job... without a job, it narrows my path to only one other option: the Navy. So here's to life, and all the hardships, sorrows, joys, bliss, and lessons that it gives to us.

Cheers Mates!